I'd been to this massage studio before. It was pricey but the masseuses were good: highly trained to gently pulverize every muscle into absolute submission. As I sat in the waiting room, flipping mindlessly through an old copy of Southern Living, my mind wandered to the calm, relaxing place where my body would soon join me. But when my name was called I jerked my head up in surprise. It was a man who called my name. I realized that I'd forgotten to request a woman when I made the appointment as I'd always done in the past. His deep voice jolted me out of my tranquil place and back into reality. I sat, bewildered, unable to move. He called my name again and this time, not wanting to appear rude, I shot up and walked over to where he was waiting. My stomach flipped the way it does at the very top of a roller coaster right before you take the plunge. Dear God--he was gorgeous with loose, shoulder-length dark hair, smoldering blue eyes, a husky voice and and broad, strong shoulders. He tipped his head to look down at me and smiled. He could wrap his enormous hands around my waist and they'd meet. It was at that moment it hit me: This man, this man, would be running his hands all over me within minutes.
No man had ever touched my naked body within minutes of meeting me. OK. That's not entirely true. But that's not something a proper mother would admit to and that's how I'd like to be thought of--as a proper mother. I have a three-year-old son and I've been married to my dear husband for nearly 10 years. I've never cheated on him, never even considered it. But I did lead a healthy, adventurous and somewhat depraved sex life during the many years before I met him (much to his chagrin). And simply seeing this dark, imposing man standing before me and knowing that he would be rubbing me down with oil in a dark room where we'd be completely alone stirred something between my legs. I shuddered with dirty thoughts. The mom in me disappeared. That depraved woman was back.
To be continued...