No matter where our lives take us, I'll always have a place in my
heart -- and elsewhere -- for this man. Somehow he touched a part of a
young college girl who'd travel miles to experience his tenderness.
Given the chance, I do it again -- even now. He's truly one who always
tempts me -- even without trying.
***
When I was in college, I had a huge crush on a family friend. He
was older. Had long blonde hair, was a musician -- but of course, was
married.
During one of his weekend jaunts, he skipped the hotel and stayed with me in a modest loft apartment.
The loft area -- the brochure dubbed it a townhouse -- was just
barely large enough for a double bed, night stand and set of drawers.
What I loved most about the layout was the skylight and the view from
the top.
I remember how excited I was that
weekend. I was giddy. I was ready to make this the weekend I let him
know how I felt. Or, better yet, the one when we felt each other.
Before now, it was mainly flirting and the occasional kiss -- but nothing more.
I expected nothing more than our usual
companionship -- lunch, conversations, laughs -- but hoped he would
leave the wedding band in the glove box and I could take full advantage
of the seven-year itch some couples experience.
I have to admit, I was so nervous. Why
was I? I'd laid several men before who were 'off limits.' I conquered
who I thought were challenges and had some of the best flings in my
young life.
He's different. There's more to this relationship than random sex. I wanted this time to be love making.
My first ploy was the shower. I
deliberately walked around in my robe half undone. I left the door
unlocked hoping he would feel an urge. I spent extra time making sure
the body wash was all over and peeked through the half-opened curtain
in the bathroom mirror to see if I had an audience. He refrained. [I learned years later he did peek (or was it peak?).]