In my brief time as a mother so far, I can say genuinely that I am a good one. I love my daughter beyond all belief and I care for her with a passion I never thought possible. Having said that, there is one area in which I am lacking and upon which I hope dearly to improve: detection of poo. I cannot, for whatever reason, remember to change my baby's diaper. This leads to all sorts of icky situations. For instance, my otherwise unfussy baby will suddenly become irritable and aggravated, seemingly for no apparent reason. She'll sit in her bouncy glaring at me with exasperation and squalking at me as I talk to her, try to soothe her. Finally, when all attempts to placate her have failed, I scoop her up only to find my hands covered in poo. I've washed the bouncy and swing covers more times that I care to admit. Why is such a simple and basic thing--changing diapers--so easy for me to forget?
I think it speaks to her newness in my life. And, to my slow ability to comprehend the fact that my life is no longer solely about me. I have this amazing new responsibility and, lovely as she is, she provides me with more than warm smiles and hearty giggles. She provides me with poo. Lots of it. I figure one day (soon!) it will dawn on me that diapers need to be changed--often. I'm slowly getting it and I've got great motivation--handle less poo.